2PM

Reading clients...I seem to be more short tempered lately. I drempt that a friend ripped me off, through a misunderstanding. She came to visit me in Panama and then expected me to pay for her airplane tickets. I was so angry, I paid it but I knew that that would leave me short for my holiday. I wonder if this isn't a full moon thing, the Moon is transiting my natal Moon in Capricorn, making me feel more intensely. Weirdly enough, this hasn't translated to food. Thank goodness yesterday was crazy. Today I have a lot of willpower and energy.

I realize that I have 6 points of snackage left for this day....So I indulged in my zero fat dream whip, rice cake 1/2 banana for 2 points.
points used for today 18

July 15 Lunch

Today has been full of bonuses! Well M paid me totally back ever last penny!!!! And today when I was walking the dog an officer actually stopped traffic on Dundas so we could cross the street. I feel as if the universe is very kind today. I'm pretty grateful for where I am. Lunch was as planned and good, again picking the basil from my yard. Tonight's plan is for turkey or chicken breast stir fry with lots of fresh veggies.

I have had a lot of exercise and plan to bike some more later on today. I think I am finally finding my self...under all that weight that I had been hiding under, and it does feel really good.

Lunch
bagel 5
cream cheese light 2tlb 2
ham 1
tomato and basil 0
Total 8, daily total 16.

July 15 Morning

Went for a huge walk with my dog, about 2 and a half hours, and don't feel exhausted but healthy tired. The park was beautiful this morning, not too hot though I should have put on some sun screen. Sirius went into the water for a bit and cooled off half way through our hike.

I feel good, I have a lot to do, but it is important for me to get out there and kind of recharge my creativity. Nature does that for me.

Breki
Kashi 3
milk 2
banana 2
coffee 1
8 points total

Well, after connecting with my body buddy and a bunch of other people I got some good advice to take with me. My kitchen looks a great deal cleaner thanks to all this energy and I even got on the elliptical machine for about ten min. Which is a start.

Food 1/4 chicken 8 points
salad 2 points
1/2 bag popcorn 2

12 points- 1 point = 11 points extra of my weekly points.

Tomorrow will be better. I think it's funny that Bridget Jones Diary had a similar entrance, for her new years resolution, only I didn't smoke or drink a lot of vodka. Anyways after that whatever that funk was it is gone, leaving me 24 points for the weekend. I won't allow myself to use up any extra points for the rest of this week. Not even during the Pagan Pub moot, where I will be tempted to get French fries, lucky for me I am at the limit of my budget and would be lucky if I can order a pint of Strong Bow (less points than beer).

Afternoon

Ok had a peach. 5 points...I will need to vent all this emotional stuff into stuff around the house, like clean up, vacuum, etc instead of resorting to eating food. Since I only have 31 points, and I'm up to 29.5 that leaves me with 1. 5 points for dinner...I will have to be very frugal. The chicken will be 8 points, the salad 2....so that is -10. I will eat it with diet Pepsi in hand....and my weekly points need to stay put until Saturday when I can use the 25 extra points for the weekend.....

My mistake

I just recaculated my points and realized I should be aiming for 31 pionts a day not 34...so I have been going over by 3 points a day, which is quite a bit 3x 7=21 extra points a week! Yikes. Oh well then I will just take in some of my extra points today, and focus on aiming for the 31 points a day limit.

1pm

Ok still somewhat emotinoally messy. I have eaten another Scone...carbs they are my nemsis! I'll add it into my daily points.

That's 29 points, leaving me with 5 points! Hmmm.....I hate weigh in days.
Dinner will be roast chicken 5 points and salad- 2 points so that will be 7 points...which means I'll be cashing in -2 weekly points.